Paths/Decisions

I have been thinking lately of the paths/decisions I have chosen and what might of been if I had wondered down the other one.

If I had not decided at 15 to tell my parents I would move in with my Grandparents because I was tired of being beaten by my father would my mom have decided to stay "for the kids".

If I had not decided to confront my father and tell him what I thought of him what would I think of him now?

If I had not decided to move in with my Grandparents instead of moving back to Elkford would I be working at the Coalmine, have a few kids, be an alcoholic and single?

If I had not decided to move in with Paige where would I be? Still working in Trail *sigh*

If I had decided right then when my Uncle L said come to Lillooet and work with me instead of saying I'll call you back...would I still be there?

If I decided not to work as a nanny for my cuz Dakota and move back to Sparwood would I have moved to Vancouver all the sooner?

If my aunt had not been so convinced that I was abusing Dakota knowing my history and how I so would not hit a child...would I have stayed his Nanny?

If Tami had not called and said we're moving to Prince George c'mon down...would I still be in the East Kootenays?

If I had found a job right away...on my own...would I have not ended up on welfare?

If I had chose cooking over security would I be still in Prince George?

If I had decided to go with Tami to Peace River instead of trying on my own to stay stable in Prince George by myself would we have stayed in Upper Alberta?

If I had not missed my Mom so much I dropped/quite everything to go back to Elkford would I still be in Prince George doing security at the Pulp Mill?

If Mom's husband hadn't been such an ass and Erin hadn't called telling me come to Vancouver they're jobs here...would I still be in Elkford? working at the Coal Mine. Single. With kids?

*phew* And that's the beginning. I've been here in/at the Lower Mainland since 1997.