Monday,

It's just another manic monday
I wish it was sunday
'cause that's my funday
My i don't have to runday
It's just another manic monday

Itsa great song and the "manic monday" totally relates to my day. Back to work to find a wall of paper and files on my desk...turns out my lawyer worked on the weekend cleaning stuff up. Yay for me. NOT!

The weekend was okay.

Friday was my night for dinner. Chicken coated in breadcrumbs and cheese with a mustard sauce with leftover salad. It kinda worked. My cooking tends to be much of a wing it and when it works it works when it doesn't we either get the ketchup (just me really) or Myluc reaches for the Cajun Seasoning.

We watched "Saw". It was a thriller that Myluc said was a blend of "Hannibal" and "Seven". And since I don't normally watch horrors, which I considered "Hannibal" to be but totally enjoyed "Seven"..I thought I'd give it a try. It was quite the thriller and I have to admit I jumped more than a few times. It was quite a weird screw with your head can totally see that movie. Sat there, watched it, don't wanna do it again.

Saturday we started running errands at 930. Went to the Dentist so Myluc could pay a $6. bill. Went to the bank to get laundry money, we picked up a cat carrier since we only had the cardboard one that Mickey came home in. Went to Best Buy cuz Myluc wanted "Soap" Season 3. Didn't have it. Ran out to Future Shop. Didn't have it. He was so grouchy. Picked up a steak for dinner cuz that's totally Myluc's thing. Home by 12. I was getting very quiet and sad and by 115 had Trigger bundled in the box to go to the Vet. We got there. I said goodbye. We left. I cried. Got home, Myluc held me for a little bit. I left at 2 to go to my friend Amy's and her beau Brok's. Instead of fixing my first Lover's Masquerade gown we totally made a new one. Black and white with the opening in the front "down to there". I joked and said it was like the green one of JLo's that caused the ruckus. Totally psyched cuz we got 90% of it done. They drove me home. Myluc and I chilled. Went to bed.

Sunday, I did eight loads of laundry beginning at 8. What a way to start your morning. I had all washers and dryers going at once and we still had to hang stuff around the apartment. I can't wait til we have our own washer and dryer. Had lunch. Went for a nap. It was just to quiet without Trigger yelling and I was totally missing him. Mickey came in for a cuddle but it was different. We're not going to have cat now that gives head butts so hard you get a concussion or one that does somersaults. *sigh* what can you do? We drove out to have Japanese with Myluc's 'rents. It was a good time. Ate way to much "All You Can Eat!" Our tummies were rumbling happy though. Home. To bed.

Up this morning and grabbed my gown. Going to try to get to the fabric place at lunch to pick up some trim. With the opening up the front unless I find some kinda black bra I'll have to close the front and wear my purple bodice. Either way works for me but I kinda like the thought of having the opening open and a new belly button ring and being a little daring and umm...vampy. I'm having Groupanoid and her friend over to crimp my hair and do my face and make me vampy. I am going to have a blast and well...hopefully I'll be able to get a picture and post it. *fingers crossed*

Should get back to work though. The lawyers are back from their meetings.

*HUGE HUGS*

Borrowed from Don't Interrupt my Happiness...

The Most God Awful...

1. Awful smell? Rotten Peanut Butter, Sour Milk
2. Awful sound? Fingernails on a chalkboard, Styrofoam scraping Styrofoam
3. Awful thought? "Did I forget to *insert here*?"
4. Awful taste? Sour Milk
5. Awful feeling? Hairs rising on your neck when watching a scary movie
6. Awful sight? Maggots in sawdust
7. Awful colour? Puce, Salmon (in my opinion at least)

Anyone got anymore God Awful ?

Choices

I decided that no one should be afeared of their pet (ie: Trigger) and since I had been told he was unadoptable, I must make a choice. I made an appointment at the Vet on Saturday.

It was the hardest choice to make but it's been a year of medicating him in the morning, watching his every move in case his hair"trigger" temper goes off, cleaning up Mickey's wounds (myLuc's cat), cleaning up our wounds, making sure there's a blanket in every room so we could bundle him up and put him in the bathroom... It's just not right. I am tired.

I don't want to be scared of my pet anymore. I want to sleep through the night without waking and getting angry at him for scratching the walls. When he's good he's really good and cute, doing somersaults n' all but when he's bad it's hades.

I talked to myLuc and I told him that I don't feel guilty about putting Trigger to sleep. I can't give him to someone who needs a second to hold him while he is being medicated, to cut his nails, to watch your back in case....

I do feel guilty because I didn't do something. Anything that could have stopped the attacks...that's what the meds were for and then he fought those and now he's back to being super aggressive.

I'm just so tired of crying and being scared of my cat. It's wrong.

Three Things:

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
01. Mel
02. Meliss
03. Phoebe

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
01. orion_skie
02. nyte_ryder
03. midnyte_snowball

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01. My personality
02. My eyes (especially after I cry ... jade green) and smile
03. My sense of humor

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
01. My eyesight
02.
03.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
01. Scottish
02. English
03. German

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
01. Bugs (any kind) well...not the kind you eat
02. Scary movies
03. Life

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
01. Contacts
02. Deodorant
03. Lip gloss

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
01. Work clothes
02. Glasses
03. Italian Bracelet

THREE REASONS YOU'VE BROKEN UP WITH EXES:
01. He was a dumbass
02. He was making plans for our future without consulting me
03. He was a drug user

THREE THINGS YOU WOULD WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
01. Trust
02. Honesty
03. Patience

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
01. Smile
02. Eyes
03. Laugh

THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO:
01. Become invisible
02. Have super hearing
03. See through walls

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
01. Walking
02. Reading
03. SCA

THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW:
01. myluc
02. laughter
03. a hug

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
01. n/a
02. n/a
03. n/a

THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION:
01. New Zealand
02. Memphis
03. New Orleans

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
01. Go to New Zealand
02. Travel with friends/family
03. ?

THREE THINGS YOU SHOULD BE DOING RIGHT NOW:
01. working
02. working
03. working

THREE CD'S YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
01. Def Leopard - Greatest Hits
02. Rascal Flatts
03. Reba MacIntyre - Greatest Hits

THREE FAVORITE CLOTHING ITEMS:
01. Duck Socks
02. Brown Loafers
03. Satin underwear

THREE FAVORITE FOODS:
01. Porkchops
02. Bananas
03. Carrots

Good news comes in threes as does bad things...at least that's what I've heard.

So far the tally is: 3 engagements (or heard of); 2 set wedding dates; 1 unknown wedding date; and o'course there's the bad news: 1 for certain trip out of 3, 2 grans really ill and 1 grandad very sad.

Life. Isn't it all about a tally chart? Pros and cons, do's and don'ts.

Borrowed from Glamazon..I'm so glad to know that we are compatible:

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way. You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Random Questions

* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: Umm yes.
* Missed school B/coz it was raining: No. Because it was snowing. -40 with wind chill in Elkford
* Set a body part on fire for amusement: Ummm....no
* Been hurt emotionally: Yes.
* Kept a secret from everyone: No. I do tell someone who will never tell.
* Cried during a Movie: Yes, totally...commercials too
* Ever thought an animated character was hot: Yup. Prince Eric
* Had a New Kids on the Block tape: Yes, tapes, posters, magazines...I was a weird kid
* Been on stage: Yes
* Cut your hair: Yes

------------------FAVORITES------------------
* Shampoo: Whatever happens to be in the bathtub at the time
* Color: Red, Yellow, Blue
* Day/Night: Day. Although some don't believe it.
*Summer/Winter: Both
* Fave Ice Cream: Mint Chocolate Chip
* Fave Subject: English.
* Drink: Non-Alcoholic - Gingerale and Hot Chocolate; Alcoholic - Rye and Gingerale, Special Coffees, Zinfandel
* Fave persons to talk to online: No nic, Groupanoid, Patrick, Court, A. Rhonda.

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Wearing: Work clothes. Striped dress pants, white sweater, black vest, black snow boots...they're just so comfy
* I'm feeling: Achy and Tired
* Eating: Hot Cinnamon Gum
* Thinking about: Luc, Life, Family, Friends, Books, Work..
* Talking to: Myself

--------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS-----------------
* Cried: Yes
* Worn a skirt: No. And I won't until I have one that fits
* Met someone new: New tellers at the Bank
* Cleaned Your Room: All the time
* Drove a car: Nope

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
* Yourself: Yes
* Your friends: Yes
* Santa Clause: Not spelled like that
* Tooth Fairy: No
* Destiny/Fate: Yes
* Angels: Yes
* UFO's: No Comment

------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: Yes
* Like anyone: Everyone
* Who's the loudest: Mickey
* Who's the shyest: Mickey
* Who do you go to for advice: Erin, Elizabether, Jules,
* Who do you cry to: Luc
* What's the best feeling in the world: Smiling a true smile - you know the one - your eyes crinkles and your heart feels light
* Who will respond to this email the fastest: This isn't an e-mail. So no one.
* Who did u send this to that won't reply: This isn't an email so noone will reply.
* And last but not least, your birthday: November 24, 1976